this is me.. not like it all seems sometimes

Tuesday, April 20, 2004

just another day.

simply, just another day.

just like every tuesday... i went to school.
got home.
watched adam till 5.

came home.
got on the compter. lol
someOsomeO
it was a good day though,
im not sure why thought.
i think a "good day" is all a state of mind.
like this morning.. i woke up and i was thinking
i want today to be good, i really good day, not normal
and it was just a good day. :)

maybe tomorrow will be good too?
who knows.

i TOLD justina that me and her had a DATE friday night lol
yes, TOLD. no questions about it. i TOLD her.

(CANT BE DOUBLE B WITHOUT ME!)
but. yes. i want to go to baywalk friday night,
i havent been in a while. so im excited.. not really.

i want matt(mj) to come over, cuase he needs to TEACH me
how to ride a city bus. people think im nuts
becuase ive never been on one
have you? not me
but ive been in a taxi a couple times!
when i was in DC and when i was in TN
ohhh yeah, tons of funny. (not, it was dirty)
oh yeah! and ive been on a subway
tons of times. when kim and i were in DC we did
ohh yeah! that was fun, you can get like anywhere
=cool=:)
well..
now hannah me and my meme are all 'down' with the move
but noo my dads "changing his mind" now
when he was HIS idea in the 1st place.
ug.i really want to. i dont know why either.
i used to flipp out when my parents would even mention it
but now... i really want to. ahh.. -sigh-

and im sorry peaches..
you are right i have been edgie..
but i heart you. lol
i guess, stuffs going on

well i am listening to the song 'burn' again.
obcess? ohhh yes.
im going to go call matt. so he doesnt HAVE to call me
he acts like its a big deal to talk to me. ohh well..
he will live. ill call him.. so he doesnt HAVE to call me
im not mad at him. or sad about him right now.
im moving on.. i will ALWAYS 'love' him
but im moving on. kind of late.. school nearly over.
took me all school year. but thats okay.
yeah.. okay im outie
(like the principals belly botton lol aly)

bye.... <333333333333

"gotta let it go..
let it burn...
i hate the thought of being with someone else but you
i know that it over
let it burn...
gotta let it burn
im twisted cuase the one side of me telling me to move on
but on the other side i wanna break down and cry"
ah.. what to do...
DAMN DOTS...........

Posted at 6:16 pm by Lizbeth795
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Sunday, April 18, 2004

whoa havent wrote in a long time

((((wrote saturday night. )))

well.. i just got home from seeing kim.
god. it was a hell house over there.
GRAZY NESS!
the one little kid, and he was really little too
he was 3 and like 20Ibs.. really little..
well.. he pee-pee-ed in his pants
haha. so kim was trying to get him to change his clothes
and he was like ROOOOARR! noo!! WAAA!
going crazy!!
and we(she) was practically wrast-EL-ing
with the poor kid cuase he was so crazy.
ah it was nuts. then he started pissing all over himself
crying
screaming
pee ing
kicking
punching
FLIPPPPING out
crazy kids.. sheesh i swear

welll... this morning i went to the mall
and im going again tomorrow after church
lol yay
and i didnt get much, shoes.
and i though i got the pair that fit..
and i didnt. lol
so im going to have my mom take them up to MO
and exchange them.
cuase i dont want to go back to westshore mall. its boring
and they have the store up in MO close to my moms work.
yay

well then i came home. hung out with kim for alittle.
and then peaches came over for a little while
I KICKED HIS ASSSSSSSSS AS PS2!!
like 700 times! i pwn! lee-tee-style! lol

but then we played pool.. and he won:(
i will admit it :( he won
but it was really close! i swear!

well besides that ive just been doing the norm
school, work, and play :)
i babysat friday night
oodles of fun.. llet me tell you
(not really)
then i came home, pretty early too :D
and talked to my mom more about moving
idk why but i kind of want to.
my dads pissing me off.
keeps changing his mind.
hannah doesnt want to either... shes all..
ill miss my..
(prissy, snoobie, privite) SCHOOL
FRIENDS
YOUTH GROUP
CHURCH
CHEERLEADING TEAM
GIRLS SCOUTS
good god hannah. just go ahead..

RAIN, HAIL, STORM oh my parade
i see how it is.

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MORE MALL MADDNESS!!!!! eee!!

yes! went to the mall again today.
good times con kimmie
ahh.. it was great
kim dared me to eat one of those gum balls that are the size of a fist..
haha and i did!!!
it was SOOO much gum i couldnt close my mouth
lol it was so funny and my teeth were all blue
and fingers and hands
looked like a dumbass=well worth it
well i thought i had a gift card to b&n.. didnt lol
it was actually to boreds. lmao
so kim and i were playing out how we would go to b&n
and then the mall.. and we got there... were looking around
for about 20 mintues.. go to pay with my gift card...
and found out we were at the WRONG store! lmoa it was great
i wanted to get my dream book and my book around tarot cards..
but noo im a dumbass
so we went across the street to BORDERS not BARNS&NOBEL
haha and we both bought a cd, woohoo!
i got the new hoobastank.. to add to my collection
-listening to it :0) - good jams!
well to add to my 'blonde' day...
kim didnt know the 22nd ave way to tynore
so i was the teacher and told her.. and i was all
oh oh oh you got to get into the other lane this one end
but no. it was the other one that ended.. lol
blonde me :/

well.. i bought another skirt and a shirt
and some jewls (my roX.. rocks. lol ohh yeah)
then i also (YAY) finally got my order from abercrombie yesterday
i got my skirt and tshirt. woohoo
sizes run really wierd at that store. my skirts huge
and its a size smaller than i normally get :-?
now im just waiting for the other gayness from ae...
taking forever
-sigh-
welll.. i guess im outie. i really need to clean my room.
a good clean
i think i might go do that
i always seem to get in the ""cleaning mood""
at the WRONG time. like i did friday right before i had to go babysit
lol sheesh
well... okay bye now
maybe i will add some lyrics. for you enjoI ment
teeheehee
(dont you like all the BOLD ness.. i copied aly.. only cuase im boored)

Posted at 6:49 pm by Lizbeth795
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Wednesday, April 14, 2004

MY JAMMMMM!

Sometimes we get second chances
And sometimes we never make it past the first
It really makes you wonder why somethings happen when they do
It really makes me wonder why it wasn't me instead of you

And when you say
It doesn't matter well it does
And all it takes
Is a mistake to eat your words
Just one more time I think I'll drive on home tonight

Sometimes we never see the warning
And the voice in your head tells you not to go
It really makes me wonder why somethings happen when they do
It really makes me wonder why it wasn't me instead of you

And when you say
It doesn't matter well it does
And all it takes
Is a mistake to eat your words
Just one more time I think I'll drive on home tonight

And when you look its gone its too late to turn around
And it's another day facing yourself and the things that you've done

And when you say
It doesn't matter well it does
And all it takes
Is a mistake to eat your words
Just one more time I think I'll drive on home tonight

Posted at 2:57 pm by Lizbeth795
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this week..

well... this week
last week was a pretty sucky week
so i was thinking that this week would be better.
not really.

well monday was okay.

it was too long ago to remember anything.
well tuesday.. nothing happened either...
i dont think..
school. then babysitting at 6.
it was "cute" when i was there he lost a tooth!
woohoo! he was flipping out
he was like "call my mom! tell her! she will be excied!"
lol awww..

jeez. ive been taking NAPS like the a little kid
when i get home from school lol
so i cant sleep at him

sheeh
oh yes. im mad at matt agian
'actions speak louder than words'
he should take note of that.
yes, and to all other boys..

just.. treat people how you want to be treated
im really trying to get over him.
im not going to go out of my way..
to look for someone new
but if someone does come around.
im going to have an open mind.
cuase im learnING that he isnt
feeling the same way i am
so im not either. yeah.
actions speak louder than words people...
ive learned it the hard way.

the other night i was thinking about how schools
going to over so soon. :( im kind of sad
although im excited cuase im REALLY sick..
of getting up at 5 am
the GAY drama people try to create
certain people
and i love the summer. so warm
just rollerblade all day.. lol
swim
sleep
mall

boat
..speaking of boat...
ive got to go. im going to work on getting my lisence thingy..
its funny. hannah has hers but noooo liz doesnt
hannahs even 3 years younger than me haha
oh well.. im going to get it before the summer begins
then kim and me and hannah and lolo can tube
and all that stuff
my dad would really like me to get a job. ha not happening
he says PULIX... hes crazy

good bye.... for now

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Sunday, April 11, 2004

easter... bleh

�how
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im so bored! gOOOsh!!
i wanted to go shopping today. but no
nothings open cause its EASTTTTER
OH LA LA
so oodles of exciting stuff going on
uh.. well went to church this moring.
rather FORCED to go to church.
its bull.. i have to get up at 7-00 on the damn weekend!
i swear.. i get up all week long at 5-00 then i have
to get up -evAL face- but its okay i guess. after i go
i feel.. like a..
BETTER PERSON? lol its kind of funny...
cause in church they were talking about forgiving people
and then when we were inthe car on the way home
my dad was like "hannah i forgive you as long as you have learned your lesson..
so when we get home i will give you the cord back to you computer
and you can have you cell phone back." haha so i decided
for HER church was worth it.
oh my gosh it so freaking nasty
she like practaically never brushes her teeth.. so i was sitting next to her in church
and good good her breath was SOO GROSS
omg when she was singing i was like PAPPIE PROTECT ME
it was so gross. you think im being dramatic about.. but no
i swear im not. shes fucking nasty

she went camping the other weekend and took her tooth brush
i know she didnt use it there cause.. well how would she she was out in the

""wild"" so there were no poddies or anything. and then

when she got home she was putting her stuff away and left it in the little case thingy
and its still in there. 2 flipping weeks later! ew.. so you know what that means
she hasnt brushed them in ATLEAST 2 weeks... gross? oh yes
so my mom bought here GUM at the store. shes like 'it will help..'
no mom. it wont. its not srtong enough. we need some super glue and ducktape
well tape it/super glue it close. its gross. ah nasty
next week im NOT sitting next to her
and ALSO at church there was this guy. IT WAS FUNNY!
he had a really deep voice (sexy) but he was singing SO LOUD
more like screaming. and it was just funny cuase his voice was so deep
lol yes.
well im reallly bored. i was thinking about calling briany and seeing if he wanted to come over
cuase im bored. we are going tubing later.. and i bet he would want to come. but...
im SCARED to call cuase of his mom. i dont want her to yell at me or somehting
and i know he will call me later. so i will just wait and then see if he can
so im out for now
im going to go make slushies. YUM
my mom got a new blender for her bday. its for the boat. lol its pretty cool
shes excited.. you know what that means... more hangovers?
im thinking they are a little to old to have hangovers.
but it does get us out of going to church.
like last weekend.. my dad "didnt feel good"
aka HANGOVER!!! yes
haha but no. im going to not complain about church anymore
it makes me feel like.. a NEW PERSON aftert.. HA

oh yes. crazy. but true

as BAMBER would say
TRUE STORY!! lol shes silly
but yes. i have been having WIERD dreams the past 2 nights

friday night..
me, justina, some hot guy(boyfriend maybe?) that she was making out with,
brian, some chick for him, archie, some chick for him, and MATT were all in it.
we were int he back of a pick up truck. lol oh the way to the mall
we were like all crouching down "''hiding''' from someone. or thing
like they were goiong to kill us. then we got to the mall and we were in the move
Dome of the Dead..or w/e its called just really wierd dream
then last night i only really remember peaches(ryan), Bamber, briany, and matt in it
and we werte BEING FORCED to watch a really gross sad movie at school
and everyone was crying except me and matt. but he was trying to and i was like
NO DONT CRY! BABIES CRY!! lol and i was being a beeotch
and i was really sleep or drunk or something and matt was taking me somewhere
and i had my hand in his pocket, like holding it. and he was leading me to the place
where i would 'feel better' at.
and other stuff happened. wierd. yes i know.

speaking of matt. i am really pissed at him right now. i swear
he freaking YELLS and BITCHES at me cause im "mean" to him
and then does the same freaking shit right back to me.
last time i talked to him (last tuesday night)
hes like "ill call you tomorrow night or the next night?k?"
and that was all super. so i waited.. and waited

but no fucking call. now its SUNDAY
talked to him? NOPE go fucking figure
oh my. i cant wait till he calls next time. its fucking shit
i wonder what his EXCUSE will be...
i swear he tells me how he """"""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""""FEELS""""""""""""""""""""""""""'''''''
but doesnt do a damn thing to SHOW it.
actions speak louder than words.
he doesnt seems to get that. at all

i know how i feel. and i dotn know how he feels
cause i dont trust what he tells me.
this isnt the 1st time this has happened.
or the 1st thing he has done to make me wonder
but now im just really pissed.

fucking shit hole

Posted at 9:28 am by Lizbeth795
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Saturday, April 10, 2004

oh lord.. i can see your boobs liz

well it was a good day
i really good day

me and brian and justina all met up at the mall

:D i got oodles of struff
6 shirts lol and i still have 40bucks

and im getting 30 for easter for my mimi
so yay im happy
it was a good time with my B justina and briany
and all his fagish ways
but we still love him
justina got a.......... SKIRT!!! omgosh
omgosh
omgosh
yes! a skirt! shes looks so cute it in
brian and i think shes got a nice ass and legs
lol
kidding... : )

when we were shopping archie..
and his...

OH SO FREAKING UGLY EX
went to see a movie
and were all making out
and we shes so ugly omg
that little 8th grader.. looks like shes 12
yuk

and me and justina are ment to tell everyone how

OH SO UGLY she is
cause brians mad at him cuase he wouldnt buy him something
at mcdonlds
so yeah.. SHES REALLY UGLY
and im not just saying that cuase he wants me too.
she really is. poor thing...?

well i havnt wrote in a while
but it was a really bad week. one of the worst in a long time

tons of bad crap was happening. school. home.
i knew it was all to perfect. homes been really good lately.
so something bad was bond to happen good.
thursday night was a terrible night. i probaly spent
a total of 6 freaking hours working on my project
for math. and i still didnt get it done to my saticfaction.. its bad

hannahs been getting in alot of trouble at home. she will learn
she just doesnt know when to stop. with her attatidue

its so wierd. just a few years ago i was the spitting image of her
and now ive grow up alot. i like to think that i know what to say....
when to say it.. when to stop. im just hoping she will learn.
theres been so much drama
well the 6th was my mimis birthday

we didnt really do anything.. cause she was in missouri and all

but she got really good presents. no fair
she got a coach purse and matching shoes! ahh
the stuff IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII wanted
no fair. just if we had the same shoe size.. :(
well i can still BARROW the bag. and i will
and she got oodles of cloths too.. so spoiled
(my dad said hes going to get us matching REAL louies.. YAY)

oh oh oh after we went to the mall and justina was over

we went SHIMMIN!!!!!!!!!
woohoo! i thougth the pool would be cold.. but
nooo! it wasnt
tomorrow if kimmie doesnt have to go to (GAYNESS) something with her fam
then we are going to to the buntsons pass! and shimmin! im xcited!!

well im done. you are boring me good bye

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Tuesday, April 06, 2004

Do you have a bra on?

times three!
three people asked me if i actually had a bra on tody
??!?!?!?!??!?!
haha i was like
yes...... :<
poor liz.

YACK!!! YACK!!!
i was yacking alll yesterday night.
i called matt right before i went to bed and talked
for no time at all
(he broke his arm maybe)? oh poor thing..)
then i watched tv for a little while and began to feel..
sick. ew
then around 1:00 i woke up
PUKING!!!!!!!!!!! ew
do you want to know what it was?
mac n cheese
koolaid
and the 2 bags of doritos
haha wasnt cool. then i got a bottle of water..
and went back to sleep :)

but THEN i woke back up at 3:00ishy
and yacked up some more
got another bottle of water and went back to sleep
but before that i made SURE to turn off my alarm clock..
no way i was getting up the next morning!! :D!
so i slept in. 8-30 ish :D!
then all day i layed around eating
sleeping
computer
tv
you know... all that FUN stuff
my mom said i was just boaping around
"feeling sorry for my self"
lol how ruude. but i think, she was just saying that to look
""COOL"" or ""FUNNY""
cuase she was on a confrence call(working from home)

and today. good day.. i guess?
nothing that i want to tell you happened
:) HA
excpet right now.. Peaches is being mean to me

just cause i dont like his profile!!!!!!!
:( tear :(

ive been watching adam since 3:00!! sheesh

but its good $$ cuase i want to go to the mall satruday
with oodles of $ theres so much i want from ae right now.. eek
i sent my mama my ""wish list""
aka
BEEOTCH I LOVE YOU! BUY ME THIS STUFF! NOW! please...?! o:)
lol
somethings wrong wtih his grandpa.. aw
so thtas why hjis mama and daddy arent home yet
so! go me! i brought him down to my house
cuase his is boring :)

well.. hannahs hungry. so BYE

rchymac0623 (6:03:16 PM): and then i can marry her and she can make me dinner everynight or ill smack her
Lizbeth795 (6:04:01 PM): hahaha no
rchymac0623 (6:04:33 PM): well what should i do when she doesnt make me dinner than?
Lizbeth795 (6:05:24 PM): MAKE IT YOUR SELF!

rchymac0623 (6:05:46 PM): but thats womans work

Lizbeth795 (6:06:32 PM): omg you shit head!! sheesh! i hope no one wants to marry you! so then your mama kicks you out the house! and you have to get your own house! and make you own damn dinner! HA! womans work my ass!

rchymac0623 (6:07:09 PM): :'(, then ill come live with my best buddy liz and shell make me dinner cuz she loves me right?
Lizbeth795 (6:07:24 PM): hahah OF COURSE! but it will cost you..
Lizbeth795 (6:07:31 PM): $$$

Posted at 4:03 pm by Lizbeth795
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Sunday, April 04, 2004

i miss my penis now

what a great freaking weekend i have had!!
i dont know when the last time i wrote in this was
so i dont know what i have wrote..
yes. so i am going to go throught this whole weekend

well friday when i got home from school i went to the mall wiht keemee and joey

then i went over to matts that night till 11-30ishy
:D jeeez, good time. becca made us dinner
"aw how romantic" HAHA

she had candles lit and all that whoooey
haha it was ffunny
::sigh:: those were the days.. :(
then saturday i went out on the boat ALL day
with mattypoo AND BECCA

it was oodles of fun
we went to 'beercan island' lol

it was really chopy on the way there
but oodles of fun

the little inside we were on was one half mile all the way around
so becca and i walked around it
and got tons of kickass shells
they are huge there
and 10 sand dollars
very nice
good day
that night it was fun too! god what a frreaking kickass weekend
we made dinner and played pool and stuf
super fun
while the parents went out to dinne
but hannah was camping all weekend
:D!
yes!
haha
it was a good.. break? ! YA
sunday. the worst day
justr becuase my love.. my penis.. my mattypoo(in funny voice)
was leaving
i was crying in the car
im not going to see him for a while
im such a loser lol
but i love him

me: im not one to kiss and tell... ;-)
justina: you have to! at least tell me if it was a peck thing, faces pressed together like you didn't know what you were doing, or make-out?
me: it was a long passionat SEXY hot SWEAT bonnerific KISSS!
justina: lies
me: im serious!!! haha
justina: i don't believe you!
me: i swear on my make believe penis!
justina: *invisible
me: jesus

haha justinas silly
well my back hurts
and we are having ribs for dinner :D!!
so im going

good bye

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Friday, April 02, 2004

Hey cute boy!

today was a good day

yes i good day!
i got to do some of my most favoritest things
yahoo

well 1st off was school
and over all it was pretty good day

then i came home and went to the MALL!!!!!!!!!!!!
YAY
liz+$+mall=YAY
then i came home
and Becca mad matt and i dinner
aww! lol shes funny

then i was there till 11-30ishy
and i got "walked" home
aw how romantic. haha

and now my back hurts like a BEEOTCH
ive got to go the dr sometime this week.. SOUNDS FUN?
heck no!

byebye

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